And the cakes making begin...

Started baking layer cake for Hari Raya order:)))

Laksam for bukak puasa

Watched tv program on laksam making, and tetiba terliur so apa lagi laksam is our menu for breaking fast today:)) Actually this is my first time making the laksam(pasta), Alhamdulillah the result was not so bad:))). Previously, I bought the ready made laksa from wet market and only preparing the gravy.But this time wholly made by me...

Few laksam left, the rest dah selamat dimakan....

So here is the recipes, no measurement since I was just agak2:))

Laksam:
Rice flour (depends on you nak makan banyak mana)
Wheat flour (sikit jek, so that the laksam is not crack)
Water

Mix all ingredients and make sure it is in a liquid form. Pour some onto the tudung periuk and steam it (kukus):))

Gravy:
Ginger
Garlic
Onion
Fish (rebus, buang tulang and tumbuk)
Coconut milk
Black pepper
Asam keping
Salt

Miss my old friends...

Not sure I'm writing this due to my unbalance hormones:)) , but I guess this is sincerely from the bottom of my heart...

I loved working here previously even things were not that good before. But I really enjoyed working.However, things had changed worst with so lil good friends around to support each other and being sincere...

I don't understand with 'some people' whose always think bad bout others. The only thing matter to them is their own feeling that need to be pampered and look after. Sometimes I was curious, how these people' perception of others, even after they hurt others with their wrongdoings and unreasonable actions...they don't realize what they've done and they'll only think of why are they being disliked by others...Grrrrr I hate working in this kind of environment, where everybody is suspicious bout others...Why can't we just think straight??!! respect others if you wanna be respected, appreciate others for who they are and not for what they have!!! and the most important think is DON'T BE A HYPOCRITE!!!

How I missed my old friends who use to share the same laughter and enjoy others achievement sincerely.But Alhamdulillah, I still have 'the lil good friends' left here, to share the burden and bored life here in Txxxxx...Thanks gals and guys for still being my good friends, for accepting each others' imperfection and keep supporting ...May our friendship last forever and let us remain sincere...

Adam in action!!!

Adam fav action...mentoring by Alisa Sofia...

Adam few developments...

Adam is now 1 yr and 3mths,what are his developments at this age?
Alhamdulillah, he had achieved quite a numbers...

1. Groove with the music.
Listening to any kind of music,he'll automatically started moving with the music. If he was about to walk away from the tv, however if he heard the music played, he'll stop until the music is over. The funny part is, he even dance to the weather background music (buletin nyer weather...).

Keeping things in balance:), if he listened to dzikir, he'll start move his body as well, and listening to the azan prayer, he'll pause and follow the azan, "Aaaa.....bak...."

2. Playing football
Due to an effective training by his personal couch,his abah of course, Adam is now good at kicking the ball. While he is sitting, he'll kick the ball with one of his leg...

3. The latest, he can walk a few steps...

Alhamdulillah for his developments...

Aiman fasting continues...

Alhamdulillah Aiman managed to finish his first day of Ramadhan. He kept on telling me to break his fast, but I told him to hold on as I knew he could finished it (from the way he was playing till afternoon, I knew that he can do it...) I told him that, with this starving he'll appreciate his bukak puasa time most... At around 3 pm he started making a food request...

"Mama, abang nak makan roti ngan sup yg macam kat pizza"
"Abang nak minum air jambu..."

At 5pm he asked me:

"Mama, kenapa mama tak masak lagi yg abang nak?"

At around 6pm, I started to prepare the meals: Mushroom soup with garlic bread, and ayam gulai for nasi. Aiman kept on counting hours to break his fast, until he fell asleep at 6pm due to exhaustion...pity him. About half an hour before maghrib prayer he sat at the table and checking for his ordered meal and satisfied everything was there on the table.

Finally it's bukak puasa time, he started with lots of garlic bread and mushroom soup without taken his nasi...and after that he told me...

"Mama best kan puasa ni..."

First day Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah, today is first day of Ramadhan.

At 4.45am, woke up to cook some dishes, actually I woke already at 2.30am, masak nasi afraid I couldn't wake on time and there'll be no rice to eat:))). After that, blend few kurma for Aiman so that he can take it in a fluid form, since he didn't like to eat kurma...

Adam woke up at sahur time as well for his milk and noticing his abah was beside him, he didn't continue to sleep and stayed with us for sahur.Meanwhile, so difficult to wake Aiman for his sahur, I took him outside and put some water on his face, but still he slept with his face on the table in front of his nasi...So, we forced him to eat and in the mamai state he only ate some of his nasi. Plus, he didn't drink the kurma I prepared for him. "Tak sedap" as he used to say the taste of the kurma.He waited for Subuh prayer and continued to sleep after that.

At about 8.00am, he was actively playing with Alisa yg tak puasa tu, as if he is not fasting too...At around 11.00am he started complaining...

"Lapar...lapar...perut abang kosong"
"Nak minum air,nak makan biskut, nak makan nasi..."

I'm not sure whether he can finish his first fasting day, but hope he'll make it through the end...

Ramadhan

Ahlan wa sahlan ya Ramadhan....

Alhamdulillah, thanks God for the most precious hikmah...Ramadhan.Hopes this coming Ramadhan will be better than previous. Pray to Allah for Istiqamah in fulfilling our obligation. Wish with the coming of months that is better than thousand months, all the epidemic (H1N1) will diminish from our Malaysia land...

Pray for all muslim especially in Malaysia, to muhasabah ourselves and think of what GOD has tested us, to let us think that Allah is the most powerful creator and our grateful is only to Allah...

My pray is also to Aiman as this is his first Ramadhan (he needs to fast this year as he is 7 yrs old), for him to be stronger in performing his first fasting year...

Face mask

It's about H1N1 again, but this time different story, public awareness...We bought the face mask last week and started to wear it. We told Aiman to wear the mask to school. On the first day he seems to enjoy wearing it, as it looks different, maybe. On the second day of his school hubby caught him not wearing the mask in school but only in front of hubby (as if he wearing it all the time lah...) Hubby got so furious as he bluffed to us. Then, I asked Aiman the reason to that, and the answer is;

"Kawan-kawan abang cakap, mulut abang macam itik" (We bought the mask yg muncung type,since the normal one was out of stock...).

Next story, me and hubby went for a shopping and both of us wore the mask, and people were looking at us...Not sure, what they thinked of.. but I heard that some of the public assumed those who wear the mask are those infected by H1N1, pity them...Some of them are so shy to wear the mask as they may look weird (here in Malaysia, since we never faced with the epidemic disease previously, if i'm not mistaken la...). and I even heard the say that

"Ajal maut di tangan tuhan..." Well there were also saying that "Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorg melainkan dia yg mengubahnya..," something like that la.

So, is that true it's about lack of public awareness and maybe the ignorance... (sorry if this may sound harsh..). But, whatever it is, please remember that we are the one whose gonna bear all the consequences...So, take a wise step and do remember: PREVENTION IS BETTER THAN CURE...

Me, The most fierce lecturer???

Got a comment from one of my student as a representative of their group saying that, they can't understand what I'm lecturing due to ketakutan melampau...They said that, they were so afraid of me, that they can't absorb anything in class. Hhhmmm, I try to rationalize the reason..

Yes, I am sort of fierce sikit2, and most all students, even the junior know me as a most fierce lecturer in our faculty, word of mouth of course telling from the senior generation to their junior:)) I am very strict in class especially on the attendance. Late to class; they'll have to 'pump in', absent to class without valid reason, they'll have to answer all questions on the next lecture (the reason here is, even if they were not attending the class, they need to grasp the topics through their friends or anything). And most prominent part here is I'm teaching electronics, which is ghost subject, where you can't see the current flowing, and all you need to do is imagine...imagine...imagine... and of course a very good theoretical background on related subjects.

I feel responsible in fulfilling their parents' hopes, that one day their not-so-good kids will turn to be someone on the same level with the selected students in IPTA, etc. and I also realize that this is an IPTS where they pay huge amount of money every semester to get a better education. So, it should worth the value they're paying right???

After some thinking, I went to the class yesterday and try to loosen up a lil bit (but still depending on their commitment). Last week I told them to do the tutorial given, and that practice makes perfect...So, during the class I ask them to solve the tutorial in front of the class...and to my surprise almost half of the class didn't do the tutorial!!!! Definitely, I burst out to an uncontrolled anger and really upset with them...

How could they understand my subject if they refused to do their homework and didn't seek my advice...I felt frustrated, tired and really upset with them.I feel like they don't appreciate my eagerness in teaching them not to mention all the efforts I put in preparing the notes, tutorial etc (of course, this is not the time to be emotional, this is not about me...) This is the difference between malay and non malay student... They spend most of their time complaining lecturers, play game and do useless things (there are still few students, good students of course, who are willing to study) and being so rude and arrogant in class...

So, is it due to the ketakutan melampau as they used to named it, is the main reason for them not being able to understand my subject???? Malas nak pikir...I'll remain myself for as long as I think I do the right thing...

H1N1-Story behind the scene

The uncontrollable H1N1 in Malaysia especially the increase cases in Pahang has left us with so many unexpected things to handle. Maybe, this is nothing to others, or things will get under controlled definitely (the question here is when???). But to us, it was a BIG thing. Having kids around, which as we know they are one of the fragile group if being infected, this is so headache to handle...why? Adam is just 1yr old, Alisa with her asthma and Aiman who is just 7yrs old...

Maybe we are being over precautious, but PREVENTION is better than CURE kan...Added to the problem the hazy surrounding which will led to flu and fever, which is also not so good to have.So, we have to do something, even we know the thing we did will definitely kill their enjoyment, but we have to. Pity the kids so much, as they don't really understand all these diseases. I forbidded Aiman, Alisa and Adam from playing outside the house. I didn't send Alisa to her kindergarden. We didn't go to PC fair held in Megamall Kuantan (Though it's not that important now...). really, hope things will got better after this...

Recall what ustaz had say, this is all from ALLAH. Thus, if we reluctant to seek ALLAH help, whoelse can we turn too???..Therefore let us pray for things will get better after this Insyallah...

Adam Explores

Adam has found his new interest, standing in front of the television:))) The tv cabinet is about 1/2 m height, so he likes to standing while his hands gripping the cabinet. I placed a few of my korean cd boxes collection on the cabinet. Previously, he managed to open each drawer at the cabinet and took out all his sis and bro's toy which is ok la...So we had to sort all the toys not to keep the small parts/toys in the drawer to prevent him from choking.He likes to bite the korean cd as well (luckily my addiction in keeping the korean drama series has slow down,so takde la geram sgt...)

Lately, he discovered the adventurous way to enjoy his standing in front of the tv, maybe bored with the same old style:))) He arranged the cd boxes in stack and step on them while giggling happily...First time seeing him with the action, it was fun, but I need to be extra cautious as he had slipped down once...

Alhamdulillah, I knew that from all the exploring and discovering, he's actually showing a good sign of a normal child development...

p/s Adam vocab. : car, cat, bird, mama, cici(for kunci), kuar (keluar), and the funny thing is he is mistaken between ears and nose...

Unproductive days

I have so many unsettled items in my to do list; books, papers, notes, quizzes, blablabla and yet I did nothing towards accomplishing those:((( I just have those thing replay in my mind again and again without taking any further steps... Instead I bought few books (story books to be precise) and finished those books while I'm facebooking, farming(virtually farming) and web surfing.

Waaaaa!!!!! I knew this shouldn't last longer, but really I'm facing my sooooo unproductive days. and from my past experience it could have been longer than I expected to back on my normal track...:((( So what's a big deal, it's bout me and pulling myself back, but really when I'm in this stage nothing could help:))) Hehehehhe...

Thinking back, lots of things contributed to this...The semester has started with so many things to prepare and unbearable workload not to mention clerical works getting in the way, my study ( I didn't do anything yet this semester,warrggghhhhh) and I feel like this is too much for me...and I'm desperately need a break!!!!!

Maybe looking for a new opportunities at at a new place could help (how I wish to have been working at somewhere else, and start fresh..:(() May Allah grant my wish,Amin...