Exam papers

I was marking the exam papers with Alisa beside me. She was curiously looking at each pages I was working on...

Alisa : Mama periksa kertas anak murid mama ke?
Mama : Ya
Alisa : Kenapa tempat yg tak ada jawapan mama tanda jugak?
Mama : Sebab dia tak tulis jawapan jadi mama pangkah la.
Alisa : Kenapa anak murid mama ni malas sangat?
Mama :!#$&^%%

Integrity...

Most of us are familiar or at least heard this term-->Integrity.

So, why I'm concern with this? Because of the big impact it has if it is not being practice...With or without noticing it, we are the leader in any ways. The parents is a leader to their kids, husband is a leader to a wife, lecturer/teacher is a leader to students, boss is a leader to the subordinates. So by having an integrity we are paving the good paths for others to follow:)) Thus,if we don't have this values,we are not helping in producing good human resources...and don't blame others (which we are guiding/molding now) for their well beings in the future as it's the impact of our ignorance today...

Integrity as a concept has to do with perceived consistency of actions, values, methods, measures, principles, expectations and outcome. People use integrity as a holistic concept, judging the integrity of systems in terms of those systems' ability to achieve their own goals (if any). A value system's abstraction depth and range of applicable interaction may also function as significant factors in identifying integrity due to their congruence or lack of congruence with empirical observation. A value system may evolve over time while retaining integrity if those who espouse the values account for and resolve inconsistencies.

Some people see integrity as the quality of having a sense of honesty and truthfulness in regard to the motivations for one's actions. Some people use the term "hypocrisy" in contrast to integrity for asserting that one part of a value system demonstrably conflicts with another, and to demand that the parties holding apparently conflicting values account for the discrepancy or change their beliefs to improve internal consistency (seen as a virtue).

The etymology of the word "integrity" can suggest insight into its use and meaning. It stems from the Latin adjective integer (whole, complete).In this context, integrity may comprise the personal inner sense of "wholeness" deriving from (say) honesty and consistency of character. As such, one may judge that others "have integrity" to the extent that one judges whether they be=\have according to the values, beliefs and principles they claim to hold.

In a formal study of the term "integrity" and its meaning in modern ethics, law professor Stephen L. Carter sees integrity not only as a refusal to engage in behavior that evades responsibility. He sees it also as an understanding of different modes or styles in which some discourse takes place, and that tries to discover some truth.

Carter writes:

Integrity [...] requires three steps: (1) discerning what is right and what is wrong; (2) acting on what you have discerned, even at personal cost; and (3) saying openly that you are acting on your understanding of right from wrong.[...] Integrity [...] is not the same as honesty [...]

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Integrity

Rain,rainy,raining....

I'm back home...!!!! after 3 days out of the house due to taking care of Adam in the hospital. And it's been raining non stop starting from last week...So, my story is related to raining which lead to leaking and move on to arranging!!!:)))

Due to heavy rain and sometimes the cat and dog raining, our house is leaking everywhere...Even though it is a new house which only age 4 years!!! In the living room centered at the fan and on top of my settees, in our family area right in front of the tv and in the computer's room just beside the printer and on top of the book's cabinet...Hmmmm all at the best spot area kan!!!

So, in order to protect the furniture, I started to arrange and move things in the computer's room. Instead of moving cabinets and computers, I was actually arranging and mengemas altogether, which took me a whole day!!! Sorting, organizing and throwing (Rule no.1 in housekeeping, throw all the unnecessaries, which I like most!!!:))) And now my back and legs are aching...:(((

Back in the office today, I spotted the kulat all over the blinder...yyaaakkkk!!!! I am so good at imagine things:))) So I can't help thinking breathing in the small closed room with no aeration, only the air conditioner, I am actually taking all the kulat while breathing.....waaaa!!!! So, I called the akak cleaner to wipe out the kulat....Fuhhh!!! now I can breath:))) Fortunately, no leaking in my room as compared to other collegues. Some of their rooms were leaking and damaged the office equipment!!!

Whatsoever, I've no complain, as this is what nature has promise us, and that's the way Allah is testing us:) Just redha and pray the weather will be better and no flood!!!!

Adam allergic

It's been a while since my last time posting to this blog:))) During this inactive period so many unexpected and haru biru incidents happened, and surely be the headline of the week!!! and it's all about my baby Adam...

Adam had a mild fever on Sunday night, at first I thought it was due to the uncertain weather, so I gave him 3ml of paracetamol and his fever gone, relief...I told hubby on the phone that Adam having a mild fever and nothing to worry .

Coming back from work on Monday, noticed his temperature rose and he had a mild fever again with few red spots on his leg.Thought it probably a normal rash and gave him another dose of paracetamol and the temperature went down again...I woke up at night as Adam hadn't sleep,he cried 'ata,ata,ata' (ata=gatal) and asked me to scratch for him and he's having a mild fever again.The red spots were obvious and had been spreading on his legs,stomach as well as his face....Ohhh!!! it must be measles then...(as what I've thought) and the red spots look like heavy rashes covering his body.

Started with some red spots which turned out to be a severe allergic...

I took a day off on Tuesday to monitor his measles...Called our family Dr. and described Adam's condition. He told me to monitor his fever, as he afraid that it might be dengue or virus fever. If the fever was not ok within 24hours, he advised that I went to the hospital for blood test (Oh! God, hope this is just measles as I expected:((( ).

In the afternoon I noticed that the 'measles' turn to bengkak at some parts of his body (which I thought might be due to scratches, as Adam told 'ata' 'ata' as he scratching the measles). I called hubby and told bout Adam's worse condition and hubby asked me to phone the Dr. again. Dr. asked me to seek expert advise for blood test and further treatment. So, I rushed Aiman, Alisa and my maid to get dress as we'll be going to KMC which is about an hour driving.We reached KMC at 1.40pm.

At 2.15 pm we met the pediatrician, Dr Yeo. At the time Adam's condition was worst with the red spots all over his body and covered his face!!! Once Dr. saw Adam, he said it was 'allergic gegata'. It maybe caused by food, wrong medicine or due to high fever.However, from my story he suspected it was due to food, which at that time I can't remember any 'unusual' food Adam has had before.So, he advised Adam to be warded for close monitoring, which I was kind of expected...and a teary scene was about to begin...

The nurse told me to wait as there was no room available,fully booked!!! so, ok la... I waited and it was 2.30pm.Almost 4pm, we were still patiently waiting, with Aiman and Alisa running and playing which was annoying as all the other patients were looking at us due to the noise they're making, Adam started to feel unease and the itchiness was unbearable, and the bengkak can be clearly seen.Some of the bengkak had turn to bluish. He started to cry, I felt uncomfortable as some of the patients were eying Adam and I knew the pity look they had for him...

I checked with the nurse for our room and with the guilty feeling, she told me the room was still not ready.I knew that she felt bad for me and tried her best to locate the room, thanks to her best effort! despite of the overwhelming frustration I had:))...

Thus,I decided to go to the mall which was situated just beside the hospital for a walk while waiting to be warded.So we went to makan2 at one of the fast food restaurant (I haven't had anything since morning!!!). After finished our lunch cum dinner, we went to the bookstore as it is kids fav. place and I knew time'll flew fast in there. So, Aiman and Alisa went bersepah2 looking for their books and I asked Adam to choose him too. Even Adam enjoyed being in the bookstore as he didn't throw his tantrum and eagerly looking for his book, Alhamdulillah, felt half of the burden was gone at that time...At least everybody forgot for a while about the exhaustion waiting session. After each of us found our books, we went back to hospital as I hoped the room should be ready...

"Akak, sori sangat, bilik akak kita dah book, tapi patient still tak keluar lagi.Akak tunggu sekejap eekkk, saya pun dah tak tahu nak buat apa..."

Hearing the words, made me felt tired,frustrated and I really wanted to cry!!!!!! So, here again I waited...At 6pm, the nurse told me:

"Akak, kita pergi A&E room dulu lah, Dr. nak amik darah"

So, we went there, and waited again...:((( I couldn't stop thinking, why were the hospital's management were sooo bad...they should allocated more rooms,bla...bla...bla (really can't help it!!!)Then, the Dr. arrived, and directed me to the A&E room for blood taking and needle insertion for his medication later ...Dr. stopped me from accompanying Adam, maybe he saw my tense and crying face kot (due to long waiting...).

So, I waited outside the room (the door was close yaaa...) Not longer after that, I heard Adam's loud crying and listened to that was unbearable...but still managed to control the tears from coming out...After about 15minutes, they called me to take Adam out...Adam was crying non-stop, I was really touched and started to feel tears running out from my eyes...

"akit..akit...akit ma..." Adam cried (akit=sakit)

I tried to persuaded him, but he refused and continuously crying.I noticed that he was actually screaming,akit..akit...akit sort of unconscious.I can't afford anymore but crying with him...I don't care others looking at me, I really don't care!!!

After another waiting session with Adam and me crying together, I received a call from the ward saying that the room was ready, so we went there. When I arrived at the room, I was confused as I saw bags and other belongings on the bed.So, I asked them whether the room was mine, and they told me:

"Sorry, akak, waktu saya telefon akak tu, saya ingat akak duduk kat Terengganu (they thought I went back to kemaman while waiting for the room, which I wouldn't do!!!), rupanya akak dah ada kat dalam hospital ni. So, kita tak sempat kemas lagi barang patient yg sebelum ni (they were in the process of transferring the prev. patient to the next room)".

I knew they noticed me crying and I can't afford showing any 'sweet' face anymore...Adam was still crying and sometimes screaming...and fortunately the pediatrician was there visiting his patient. I can see his guilty feeling, since he saw me waited everywhere!!! and nothing he can do about it!!! So, h e asked the nurse to locate us at the special waiting room (the room is provided for ICU patient's family).

"Let the baby playing in there with the air conditioned room, so that he'll feel better" he said.

And we were waiting again, but this time it was much,much better, thanks to him!!! Adam had stop crying, he started to play with Alisa, putting a big smile on his face...sigh...

Waiting in the special room...

Finally, at 7pm, our suffering period ended, the room was ready.We settled down and a while later Adams's medication started...Hubby arrived at 10.30 from Kuala Terengganu.

needle insertion...Adam exhausted

We stayed in the hospital for 3 days, and discharged on Friday... Dr. remind us that the allergic might come back and thus we have to be extra careful with his food and next time if it happen again make sure he receives an early treatment...I'll surely remember that, as I can't bear facing the same situation again...

Adam after has been fully recovered...started discovering:)))


Alisa's welcome home gift for mama.
A pic of a happy mama coming home from hospital and mama's fav high heel...uhuks

Aiman's welcome home gift for mama with self made envelope.
An arrow showing the opening part. With a special note for mama "Selamat pulang ke hostal (hostal=hospital) which he meant as selamat pulang ke rumah.A picture of animals in zoo...apa kaitan with me coming home from hospital!!!!

Kids in adult world...

While lepak2 with me on the bed, Alisa had this conversation with Aiman:

Alisa : Mama, adik tahu macam mana mama bersalinkan Adam.Doktor belah perut mama kat sini kan..(while demonstrating the cutting horizontally on her stomach)

Mama : Betul lah tu....

Alisa : Macam mana ni ma, adik takutlah, nanti adik ada baby kena belah cam tu...(Hmmm visionary imagination:)))

Aiman : Abang takpe, tak yah bersalin,tapi...abang kena bersunat.Sakit tak ma org sunat pakai pisau?

Alisa : Tak yah pakai pisau, pakai laser jek...tak sakit...

Mama : Aiikkk!!! Macam mana adik tahu?

Alisa : Kawan adik cakap...

Jalan-jalan weekend...

With hubby working far away from us, I realized one thing; quality time. We really appreciate the limited time we had.Every weekend is a family time out.It's not necessary to be far away from home, what matter most is the time we spent together...

Smile!!!

Kids hot spots 'horse' riding place :))))

Sulking Alisa...Storyteller- Aiman:))

Auummm Chak!!! Our lovely Adam...

Orange Choc. Mousse Cake

Presenting my new cake collection:)))!! (baik nyer promo ok!)-->> Orange Choc Mousse Cake.
This cake was specially invented for K. Nyza. Why? She asked me to bake her cake, with orange taste...So, I came up with this new invention (perasan gileerrr!!) Thanks for her creative request...

This cake used choc sponge cake as its base, layered with zest taste of orange, and finally covered with choc and almond spread as its topping. Flavor wise, don't know yet, need to confirm with her:)))

Hooray!! Time

Final year exam is finally over for Aiman and Alisa. Today Aiman had his last paper and Alisa has ponteng already:)) Everyday, I'll ask Aiman abt his exam and as usual the answer is ...easy peasy!!! (Don't absorbed by his answer ok).

Mama: Abang punya exam hari ni senang tak?

Aiman: Senang jek, abang pikir betul2 sebelum jawab macam mama ajar.

or sometimes the conversation goes this way...

Mama: Soalan exam kat sekolah abang lagi susah or yg abang buat latihan kat rumah?

Aiman: Yang kat rumah lagi susah. Or kadang2 he said; yg kat sekolah lagi susah dari yg kat rumah.

and today he had science paper, and when I asked him which one is more difficult, he said:

"Dua2 senang jek..."

Just wait for his result:))))

chicky Adam

Adam is now soooo good at imitating:)) Sometimes when Alisa is crying he'll imitates her with his cute chicky face...

I was sneezing and he'll do it as well "ahem! ahem!" as he said it. Last time, we were at the supermarket, and this baby was about to cry, and he imitated from afar "weeekkk!" and the baby stop, and then started to cry again, so as Adam he stopped and cried again, and then he chuckled happily while imitating the baby:))))

Cehh...ikum..

Adam is nearly 1 1/2 years old. Alhamdulillah his vocab has expand progressively...

When we give something to Adam he will say "cehh"... meaning terima kasih. When he stand near the door with his hand knocking and he'll say "ikum".. for Assalamualaikum.

He is also good in comforting Alisa when she's crying. He'll pat his hand on Alisa or lend his hand and take Alisa to Mama. Sometimes, during bed time, when I ordered Aiman or alisa to sleep, he will also lend his hand and bring his abang or kakak to the room:))) (after that he'll play with them in the room!!! serampang dua mata la nih...)

Everytime, I return from work, he'll show the key ,"ici,"ici" a sign to take him out for a ride. He'll cry if I take off my veil, since he knew, I'll wear my veil before going out:))) Toddler is indeed a good observer!!!